Our shattered dreams are never random. They are always a piece in a larger puzzle, a chapter in a larger story.

Larry Crabb

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

I Wish You Could See What I See

i wish you could see what I see!
I don't see the annoying little cousin who is getting in the way of your badminton game,
I see a little boy excited to see his cousins and their friends
I see a little boy reaching out of his world and offering a bridge to his world
I see the potential of a great moment

My heart cries let him play, join him on the bridge
He will go home soon and then you can play your competitive game
Yet my actions and words betray my heart
I send his daddy to take him away, knowing an already unstable bridge may completely fall apart!

I wish you could see what I see!
I don't see the annoying boy who just wants his way
I see a boy excited to maybe get to go and play
I see a little boy who just wants to be included
I see an olive branch being offered, and a child literally begging someone to take it

My heart crumbles as I know there is nothing I can do
Judgements are made and sentences I feel have been passed
So I hold my son as he screams an incoherent plea
And if I were to translate he would say please include me


I wish you could see what I see
I don't see a little boy who is too rough
I see a little boy living in a world that is not made for children with brains wired differently
I see a little boy looking to connect 

I know it is hard to understand
His ways are not your ways
His wonderful brain and body work differently
He shows his love and connection uniquely 

I wish you could see what I see
I don't see a rude little boy who just said no and may have have pushed you away
I see a little boy who in that moment may be in pain and knows no other way to communicate with you
I see a little boy who has found a way to communicate despite words not coming easily

How can I expect others to understand?
The ill mannered child you see is not the one that I see!
I see my son, I see a child who is innocent in this all, yet because he is different will face a life of judgement!
I see a little boy with endless possibilities!  I see the child I prayed for, the child I thank God for!
I wish you could see what I see!







2 comments:

Caroline said...

Hi Leanne,
This must be such a difficult journey. Jaris is an amazing gift from God. I know that you know that, but just sending words of encouragment :0)

Trev and Rebekah said...

beautiful poem friend. HUGS!!!