Father's Day Confessions

So I feel that I need to admit that I really have never enjoyed Father's Day ever. I know this is because of my childhood and the lack thereof of a father. I got all wrapped up in my hurt and pain from previous years, and the fact that with my biological father being dead now that there was never going to be a father's day in which I would enjoy celebrating my father. I got so wrapped up in my frustrations I forgot that I have the best DADDY in the world and that is God. I call God my Father and most often when I am praying I refer to him as Daddy, sp if I do that then why can't I celebrate my Daddy God on Father's day. The answer is that I can celebrate God as my Father, I just got so wrapped up that I was unable to see beyond the immediate hurt and frustrations I was feeling.

I still know that I have some things to do in the area of grieving my biological father and the lose that his death brought. A lose of future hope that things maybe different on day. How as I move in that direction and can let I hope future Father's Day will not be so hard. The reality God has been my Daddy for my entire life, and He loves me, so today, the day after Father's Day I want to simply say "HAPPY FATHER"S DAY GOD"! And thanks for the reminder that I can celebrate You!

Greed

I was challenged today by a discussion that happened in the grade 7 class that I am a learning aide for. We were talking about greed, and the truth of greed being the source of suffering for many people. I made a comment to the class that even those of us who donate clothes to the poor need to take a closer look at what we are doing. Are we donating old clothes because we have just bought our selves new clothes or are we giving away new stuff. I had never thought about the fact that sometimes I could go out and by new clothes just to give away. The reality I think my clothes right now are very functional and work just fine, and well yes I do like new things (new clothes included, if I can find something I feel good and comfortable in) do I need new things?

Recently I have been blessed with and amazing husband who provided so very well for me. He has given me a beautiful home, a new car, anything I feel I need or want pretty much I can have. The more I have been given the more I find at times I want and the more I compare myself to others. To our neighbours, to people who well lets just say this one person has more money than almost anyone would know what to do with. When I say that I would be happy living in a cardboard box with my husband am I really serious about that, or am I just saying it because I can say it. I grew up with very little and now all of a sudden having lots is a little overwhelming. What happened to the Leanne who was okay with not a lot? I am not say that if one has lots that they must give it all up. Not all. I think what I am trying to say is what is our motivation. Am I giving away cloths to the Salvation Army because I have just bought a bunch of new clothes for my self and don't know what to do with the old stuff, or am I giving clothes, both new and old away because I see a need and I want to do what I can to fill it. I pray my motivation will be the latter. Okay so that is my rambling for the day.

Blessings, Leanne

Radium HotSprings!

Okay so this weekend Jeral and i went to Radium Hotsprings. Yeah!!!!!! Road trip. We took the motorbike this trip, and it rained oiy! I was very tempted to have a bad attitude when the rain started. I was upset because I had to put my book away. Yes I was attempting to read on the back of the bike. I was reading " A Glimpse of Jesus" by Brennan Manning. I had just put that book away and started "Velvet Elvis" when the rain came. Ahhhhhh!!!!!! At least I had my mp3 player to listen to, otherwise 5 hours on the back of a bike could heave been rather boring. However despite this I decided to have a better attitude. After all 10% of what happens to us are the actually events and the other 90% is our attitude.

The adventure got even better when the motorbike ran out of gas, and wouldn't switch over to the reserve tank. I was a little worried at first. But then decided hey if we have to walk 20 km then we have to walk 20 km. Luckily Jeral was able to get the reserve tank working (I originally miss underestimated the distance we would have had to walk. It was about 55 km to Radium. Now that would have been a walk.

So we got to Radium, and we warmed up before we head to the Hotsprings. The guy at the motel said it was about 2 km, wo we decided to walk. Nope it was more like 4km. I am very blessed that my husband walked at my pace. Nice and easy. It was good exercise and a great time to talk. Once we got there is was relaxing in the hot pool, and was that ever nice. I was secretly excited to get to wear the bathing suit I bought for our honeymoon. I look pretty good in it if I may be so bold as to say so, and I know Jeral likes it and that is what really counts.

Sunday we went to Invemere. Jeral wanted some Kicking Horse Coffee, so since they make it in Invemere we thought it would be a good place to go. Then we headed home. Oiy, I was very sore. Staddling someone on the back of a bike for 5 hours with the bike vibrating on the road, it is unnatural I tell you. On the way home we had another adventure of sorts. We almost got smucked on the road. Some person thought "hey I want to pass this slow vehicle, but hey there is a motor bike. Oh well I am going to pass anyway." Jeral is a great driver that is for sure. He was able to slow down and swurve otherwise we wouldn't be here. Honestly that was rather freaky and I was holding on to my honey with all my strength.

So that was our trip. Now we are home and I am back at work. Hopefully we will have more motorbike adventures soon.