36 Weeks and Family Photo's

 The cousins!  

 My beautiful daughter full of personality.  Funny thing is she is in this camera shy stage of life and they still got some great shots of her!

 My family L-R : Tyson, Chris, Jocelyn, Maddie, Mom (Olive), Kenzie, Me (Hayden in the tummy), Jeral, and Jaris

 A mother and her daughters

 The kids are going crazy yet not to shabby!

 We were playing round about mouse to get her in a happier mood!

 Love his eyes!  

 31 weeks here in this picture!  More to come on August 4th!

 I love being this boys mommy!

The kids and Dads throwing rock in the pond!

Life is busy around here between two 2 year olds and appointments we are busy, busy, busy.  However today is a stay at home pj day since starting tomorrow we have a week of non-stop appointments and outings.  We are gone every day of the week with something.

Yesterday I had my almost 36 week check up with my OB, and strangely enough yesterday also marked a year ago that I took the misoprostol to force my body to let go of our little baby girl who was already with Jesus.  That night was probably the most painful, hardest, and loneliest nights of my adult life, and the days that followed were so hard on my heart.  

Now a year later I was in the office of the same OB almost 36 weeks pregnant with our son.  And crazy enough we have 3 weeks and 2 days at most until he is here!  So far so good with Hayden, however my blood pressure is doing what it did at this stage when I was pregnant with Jaris, it sky rocketed through the roof.  We are waiting to see what next week holds.  I have another appointment and an ultrasound.  We are still hoping and praying that my body goes into labor naturally, and I am secretly hoping by the 16th of August in part because I really would like to have both of my support people there and Jeral.  However I also know Hayden will come when he is ready unless we get to August 20th.

Last night Kenzie was sitting on my lap looking at the pictures I just posted and I decided to pull up two more pictures.  I spent some time telling Kenzie about about the woman who gave birth to her and showed her a picture of the two of them together and told her that we can look at this picture and talk about it when ever she wants.  I know she does not totally understand yet, and that is okay.  We really do not want to showing her the picture for the first time when she is 5 or 6 and throwing her world for a big loop.  We want conversations like last night to be normal so when she is able to understand more it is not strange or weird.

I also pulled up the only pictures we have of Kenzie with her namesake.  Honestly the lighting is awful and I am sure that they got better pictures with their camera when they came to visit her when she was 5 weeks old.  One day I will have to explain that the locket in her hope chest is not from her birth mom, instead it is from the lady we named her after.  I am thankful that Kenzie can also read my blog from that time.  It is funny one would think that after not seeing or speaking to someone for 2 years you would not miss them however ...!  The reality is Kenzie has lots of people who played a huge roll in her becoming a part of our family that she may or may not ever meet.

Well I have lunch to make for the kids, laundry to do, and rooms to tidy up!

34 Weeks

Wow so close to the finish line!  34 weeks, and still feeling pretty good, at least when i think about how sick I was at this point with Jaris.  Every day/week that I get to breath properly is a blessing and something to be thankful for!

I remember when we lost baby Annabelle (a year ago July 21st, we found out she had no heart beat), I told someone that I would go through nine months of not being able to breathe if it meant we could have her back.  So when I got pregnant with Hayden I started praying I was not going to have to live out those words.  And while I have been stuffy a lot through out this pregnancy I am still able to breath at night thus far, and hoping that I get to keep breathing through my nose right to the end.

It is also nice knowing I have an end date in sight and that day is actually now scheduled for August 20th.  Yeah for not going over due. While I would way rather go into labor naturally than be induced I am thankful that my OB will be around for this delivery.  So why the early induction date?  My OB is going to New York with his daughter on my original due date so he is inducing me before he goes.  With the possibility of complications arising during delivery like they did with Jaris he wants to be the one to deliver.  Plus I was the first woman be preformed an ovarian drilling on (yep I was a guinea pig), and he missed the birth of the first child as a result of that surgery, and he does not want to miss this one.

There is lots to do in the next 5 and a half weeks!  However we are trying not to stress over those things.  What gets done and that is that!  Well okay that is one project that has to get done otherwise my wonderful hubby maybe in the dog house!!! :)  Other than that I do not care that much!

32 Plus Weeks

 Our weather lately has been cool and damp and guess what I am not complaining at all!  I know that by the end of summer things will heat up, however I am on thankful woman right now that the weather is cool!

 I seriously could not get a good picture of the kids on our little walk at Margert Falls yesterday!  However I love my little boy, so great picture or not I am posting these!

 Kenzie not so sure about mommy stepping away to take a picture

 Daddy and his miracles watching the water!

 Finally looking at mommy.  I love his curly hair!  I wonder what kind of hair Hayden will have?

 The top part of the water fall.  This time the waterfall was so fast and gushing that water was spraying us from a good distance away.  The kids at first were unsure and then Jaris decided he liked it and it was hard to contain him.

Finally a smile yet a fuzzy picture!

Last weekend we were in Kamloops for a family photo shoot with my family and the photographers were amazing and I am so looking forward to getting those photo's and posting them here.  We loved their work so much that we have asked them to do my maternity photo's and our newborn photos.

So I am just over 32 weeks in this pregnancy and wow, I feel pretty good.  I can still breathe which is awesome. I have at most 7 weeks and 5 days left and while that may seem like a good amount of time, I know it is going to go by so quickly.  We are already in July which means next month we will go from a family of 4 to a family of 5.  This past week I have been reading a great book, that I so wish I would have known about when I was pregnant with Jaris.  Alas hindsight is always perfect.  I am not able to go back and redo things from when I had Jaris, however I am positive that Hayden's birth and after will be very different than things were with Jaris.  I have learned a lot, and also spent time being sad realizing that things could have been very different.  However that was then and this is now and I while we are anxious about somethings generally we are just very happy and looking forward to Hayden joining this family!!!!!