Something to Chew On!!!!!!!!!

Trust is a funny thing because it requires one to completely surrender despite the possible outcome. Trust is coming to a place of rest in the arms of Jesus not matter the end result.

8 Weeks

So I had my first prenatal visit with my OBGYN yesterday. It was so nice to get a plan in place and have all my appointments booked for the next 7 months. Since my doctor is gone for the last month of my pregnancy and coming back 7 days before I am due, our little "Joy Bug" cannot be early. Well I guess he or she could I just do not want him or her to come early and have to have another doctor deliver.

I was talking with Dr. Upton yesterday and he told me that three of his patients who have struggled with infertility have gotten pregnant and we are all due within a month of each other!

So my official due date is April 6th. So almost a week later than we thought, however that is fine. We have waited so long for our little on already and we will continue to wait as he or she grows inside of me.

Well I have a speaking topic to prepare. I am speaking this Sunday in church. Not sure how I will do since I have no way of knowing when the yucky feeling of morning sickness will hit. However I do know that if I do not eat small amounts regularly I am even more hooped, so I might bring kids fishy crackers up on stage with me! Needless to say this Sunday could be the shortest church service we have ever had! Oh well! Anyways I would appreciate your prayers for Sunday, even if you are on the side that does not believe women are supposed to be allowed to speak publicly in church.

Grandma's In Heaven

Well on Tuesday just before midnight Grandma with to be with Jesus. Our families biggest prayer warrior is not longer on this earth.

Jeral and I had planned to go see her after my ultrasound on Wednesday morning, however she left this world before we could see her. Yet we are happy for Grandma, she is finally out of pain and with her Jesus and her George (my grandpa). The memorial if on Monday in the afternoon. I have been asked to share from, the perspective of a granddaughter. Hopefully I can make it through. Last year at this time when my other grandma died and I gave the closing words I lost it. Oh well that is life.

On a more positive note the ultrasound yesterday went really well. We saw our little "Joy Bug", measuring 1.17 cm. It is so crazy that our baby is so small and yet by the end I will be wondering if I will be able to push him or her out because he or she will have grown so big. His or her heart beat was strong at 150 beats a minute. We have two pictures on our fridge right now. Maybe I will get around to scanning them into the computer in the next little while and maybe not. The rest of the pregnancy my OBGYN will handle, however I was told that I had to go back to the clinic to show off my pregnant belly at some point, and then send pictures of the baby once he or she is born! I think I will do the picture, as for showing off my pregnant belly not sure if I will do that!!!! Maybe I will just send a picture of that as well!

Insomnia, smells, and other things!

So I am struggling with insomnia once again. I am an insomniac, I have been for years, however in the past I would just suck it up and let the insomnia cycle run it's course. However with being having someone else to think about I really do not want the next 3-4 weeks to be filled with insomnia. Oh well I will have to trust God, and from what I have read there is nothing I can do about it.

Tomorrow we have an ultrasound and then I have a ton of questions for the doctor. Like what can I do for the insomnia etc. After going for the ultra sound we will go see my Grandma who is dying in the hospital. We were told that she had a couple of days and in true grandma style she is still holding on yet we know that the end is close. Grandma was the prayer warrior in our family, and with her passing soon our family looses the biggest prayer warrior we have had.

It is crazy how impending death bring up things from the past, things that we all to often forget. Some good things and some hard things. Oh well I have a lot to think through and talk with Jesus about in the next while.

So my sense of smell have increased since becoming pregnant. Jeral has always come home for lunch and we would always spend time kissing before we would eat lunch. Well I knew that he was sweaty and so on, however now he just plain old stinks. I seriously have a hard time sitting next to him, so I don't. That is until he showers, which does not happen until after he gets in for the evening. Then he smells good, however I do not like the soap he uses so I think that for the next few month he will have to change the soap so I like his smell a little better.

I am also trying to find a fine line between exercise and taking it easy! Oiy! I know that our pregnancy is a high risk one, however I do not want to be a couch potato. Yet the doctor said to tapper things back. Oh well I will trust that God will tell me what the line is!

If we get a picture of the ultrasound tomorrow I will post it!

Week 7

So I am now 7 weeks along, and this past week we had a scare, and I freaked out! I guess I would not be a normal woman, or mom if I did not freak out. Luckily we are at a private fertility clinic so I called and they got me in the next day for an early ultrasound. Our little "Joy Bug" is still safely in me. We got to see his or her little heart beating. Wow! It made everything so much more real. I guess up until now as much as the tests have all come back saying that I am pregnant, I was not sure if this was all true. We tried for 2 and a half years, and the tests always came back negative. So yeah seeing our tiny little Joy Bug made everything all the more real, well seeing him or her and the fact that morning sickness has hit pretty good, and I am tried all the time! Not that I am complaining! I rather enjoy having a good excuse to go to bed early and sleep a lot during the day.

We will be going back this week for the originally scheduled ultrasound, and then we will better know my due date! However in the mean time I will eat kids fishy crackers, ice cream and nectarines, and smoothies with protein thrown in so I am getting some protein since the tough of eating any meat right now makes me sick. Maybe I will become a vegetarian while I am pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah not likely, however for now I will do what I have to do!

Holidays, Sad News & Good News

Hey Everyone! Well we just go back today from our 12 day trip. On our trip we went to Abbotsford, Langley, Vancouver, Courtenay, Victoria, and Pender Island. The original plan was to go on motor bike, and that is how the trip started off, yet for reasons that will be clear later on in the post Jeral went home on the bike and brought back the car.

We enjoyed a short visit with my grandpa, and then Jeral's parents in Oliver as we made our way to the lower mainland. My grandpa surprised me and gave me my grandma's wedding rings. She passed away 11 months ago. So I will wear them for now and then I will take the stones from my rings and hers and have them reset in a wedding set that I like, and then we will pass the rings onto our children some day.

While we were in Abbotsford we got to hang out with some friends and their family's. We had so much fun with them despite the blistering heat. We had supper with Andrew, Marie, and Josiah the one night. We love spending time with them, and this is the sad news - four days after we spent the evening with them baby Josiah went home to be with Jesus. His life was a miracle, and he survived and beat the odds against him. Uncle Jeral and I will miss you little man, and feel blessed that you were a part of our lives!

Josiah and his amazing mommy smiling and laughing!

Auntie Leanne feeding Josiah some yummy big boy food!

From there Jeral and I went to Vancouver! Once we got there Jeral drove the bike home and brought the car back and the following picture I think clearly describes why we decided that the car was the best option for the rest of the trip.

Yes that is right I am pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!! We never in a million years thought that I would ever get pregnant and now I am pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am 6 weeks along, so around the end of March we should be welcoming our little "Joy Bug" as we are calling him or her right now! After we tell our home church tomorrow then I will post something on facebook, so until then please keep all comments posted here on the blog!

After Jeral got back we went to the Vancouver Aquarium. Soooooooooo much fun. I loved going there and we will definately bring our future kids there!

We also went to Courtenay to spend some time with some of our friends there!

We got home this afternoon and now I am taking a break and going to take a bath and then nap! I hope all is going well for all the rest of you!