Happy Mothers Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all you mothers out there! You are truly blessed whether or not you know you are truly blessed to get to be a mother.

Mother's day can bring a mix of emotions for all sorts of reason. For some celebrating this day is great, you have a great relationship with your mother, and that is awesome, so I say celebrate away. For others it is hard because they may have lost their mother, give your self permission to grieve on this day. Grieving is necessary. For others, today brings pain because they may have lost their child, or their child may not be walking with Jesus (for those of use who do love Jesus it is hard to see you son or daughter walk away from him), and you to may need to give yourself permission to grieve. And for others of us, today is hard because we have an unfulfilled longing to be a mother, and for some reason or other God has said no, or wait.

For me today is a mix of both. I celebrate my mom (actually we are seeing her tomorrow). She gave birth to me, and though we may not always see eye to eye and our relationship has had it's rocky patches. I choose to celebrate her, she is my mother. I also choose to celebrate all those who have in some way mothered over the years. Honestly when we live in community with others who love and serve Jesus we get the blessings of having other godly women walk with us, and sometimes mother us when our mothers are not around. And today I also celebrate the mother side of God. I know that last sentence may cause so frowns and concern and yet if we read scriptures carefully we will find that there are some times when God is referred in terms of a mother Bear protecting her cubs, or a mother hen looking after her chick. I have found that often it is God mothering me through the tenderness of other older women in my life. So I celebrate that today as well.

And I also grieve the fact that I long to be a mother, and for some reason God is saying wait. I honestly thought today I would be able to avoid the hurt since we were busy with a wedding and other things, and yet the ache to be a mother was and is still there. Today I got to hold my friends baby though the wedding ceremony of the camp cook, and I actually spent more time looking at my new nephew Gabriel than I did at the bride and groom. If it were not for the people around us I would have been crying, and that would have been okay. He honestly is perfect in every way. And my heart longs and yearns for the day that I get to hold my babe in my arms. I don't think I will ever let him/her go.

So today is a mixed day, and that is just fine. Today is a day of tremendous blessings and a day of sorrow, and both are good.

That is my tangent for now. Happy Mothers Day to everyone!